Maybe I'm the one to blame??

I absolutely love and adore the singer Ledisi. I'm scared to meet her because my only reaction would be to slap her for being so ignorant on this microphone. My favorite album of hers is Turn Me Loose, which holds one of my favorite tracks, Alone. (I do not claim rights to own this song or footage) Listen to the track and get into these lyrics.

You SAY that you still love

It's not in your actions, so what's the distraction?...

Please want you tell me the truth instead of always just leaving me alone...

Please tell me how did you and I become

Then change from WE to ME?

I see you changed and I'm the one to blame

'Cause I noticed everything and I never said a thing

So say what's on your mind, so we don't waste our time

Tryna hold on to loose ties

Please want you tell me the truth

Instead of always just leaving me here alone

In order not to make this to long, I won't post all the lyrics. Listen and adore it. For some reason my favorite line is "I see you changed and I'm the one to blame, cause I noticed everything and I never said a thing." Isn't that the truth most of the time? We sit idle watching this train wreck about to happen never saying what is on our mind. The way I interpret the song, she is telling her lover this past the point where she should have said something, but right before it all falls to pieces.

Imagine how different our situations would be if we spoke up for ourselves. Too often we expect our mate to know our every thought. If you ain't noticed by now, that don't work.

So moving forward in my quest to heal my heart, I vow to no longer sit quiet and wait on the train wreck to happen. If we ever want to see change, in any aspect of our life, we must first be that change. Take the time to talk...find out what the real issues are. Most of the time we will find that the issues are quite small.

I refuse to be the one to blame in the future. 

Almost DOESN'T Count

Little Miss Brandy definitely had a winner with her Never Say Never album. Each song on that c.d. was definitely a classic. As I embark on Mission: Mind, Body...& Heart, I have realized that the area of my heart needs the most work. For that reason, Almost Doesn't Count, seems to be a perfect song to help guide me in the right direction.

Almost made you love me...Almost made you happy...
But everybody knows almost doesn't count...
You can't get to heaven half off the ground...
I can't keep loving you one foot outside the door...
Can't keep on trying if you're looking for more that I can give you...

 

Props to the person who wrote that song, because these lyrics were speaking! 

How often have we found ourselves in situations where we continue fighting for someone who barely seems to be there? Some days they give you what you need and some days you're left wondering where that passion went. It's never an easy situation. The hardest part sometimes is coming to the realization that you have been giving your all when the other person has only been giving 10 percent. By the time you figure it out, you're tired and pissed off and ready to do something serious. But...once we realize it...it's a great feeling. Believe it or not, you have just gained power back over your life. Eventually, you find the courage to move on. No, it's not easy, but it is a step forward.

Maybe you will be sorry, maybe you will be cold

Maybe you will come back running from a cruel world...

Maybe I'll be here, Maybe I'll see you around

That's the way it goes

Almost doesn't count

Cheers to getting our hearts in order! No more accepting half-ass emotions and half-ass participation when we are giving our all.

"Love me or let me be..."

Mission: Mind, Body .... & Heart

Please allow me a moment to catch my breath. I am new to running and it is going to take a moment for me to get use to this! For some reason as I write this, Nicki Minaj "Moment 4 Life is playing in my head. Take a listen and finish reading.

MIND: They SAY that brains are more important than beauty. The jury of my court is still out on that debate and have yet to return. However, I do believe that mind is the most important muscle in the body. For that reason, I have enrolled myself in graduate school for this upcoming semester. Nothing enriches and works the brain better than education. Truth be told, I also believe that those who have more education have slightly better chances of attracting a more suitable mate. I would go into details about the mate I'm looking for...but that's another posting.

BODY: I started running a few weeks ago and it has been quite an interesting experience. Primarily because I have yet to purchase adequate running shoes and my running playlist needs some work. Would you be interested in purchasing me some shoes? Size 9.5, please. I started running for health reasons (high cholesterol) and also to get in shape. As the weeks have gone by, I have come to enjoy running. I have a small boost of energy, my skin is doing some wonderful things and it just feels great to be making steps to improve my health and body......and I'm trying to be fine by 2K12! I have found a 5 mile running event that I plan to participate in during November. I am really excited and looking forward to the challenge. I will be rewarding myself by attending the Watch The Throne concert with my frenemy @imarebel116.

HEART: This part of the mission I can't really say what I am doing to make it better. However, I am challenging myself to be open to more experiences. When I was younger (years & years ago) I had such high standards. Perhaps we all do at a certain age. As I have matured (on my grown man ish), I wouldn't say I have lowered my standards, but I have become more realistic.Challenging myself to be open to more experiences allows me to step out of the box that I was in and to see what else is out there. Like they say, if you do what you have always done, you will always get the same result. Honestly, that's not what they say but I forgot the exact words.

Mission: Mind, Body...& Heart is honestly about getting my life together. It won't be easy but I have to start somewhere. As the past month or so have gone by, I have realized a lot of things. It's funny how we are always realizing things. Guess that is a part of growing up. Take the time to look within yourself and see what is going on. What can you work on to improve your life? Not only will making some changes in your life make YOU happy and healthy, but it will also change the people around you. If it doesn't,perhaps you should check the people around you!


Be happy.

"It's time to get free..." - Lauryn Hill